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2001 "Cause & Effect" ____________________________ January 2001 Through automatic writing, Tara receives answers to questions about a difficult childhood, being fired, breast cancer and finding your purpose. Abenda writes the introduction to this first column of the new century: “As you begin this new year, consider making a personal commitment to do your best, live your best and love your best. Humans think they live best by prospering, sacrificing and redemption. But in your reality, living your best is a matter of honoring the dirt beneath your feet, and appreciating the simple joys of life -- a smile, laughter, camaraderie, and appreciating your environment. Take time to honor your life; your pride, compassion and dignity. “You are your own best friend or worst enemy. This is not just a saying, but a profound statement of truth. If you are living inharmoniously, it is time to change your viewpoint. Even if your current karma includes suffering, wisdom can erase the pity and blame, and help you to release the effects. Take a few moments each day to alter your viewpoint and be thankful. No matter what we encounter on our journey, the miracles of life are always there for us to see, hear and experience.” * * * * * For each issue of Soaring Spirit, Abenda chooses letters she feels will relate to many readers. To receive the communications, I go into a theta-level trance, and my Spirit Guide finds someone on the other side that knows the letter writer or a loving entity who is aware of the problem. Under Abenda’s carefully orchestrated conditions, this soul controls my hand and the response is received via automatic writing. I also perceive the soul visually while this is transpiring.
Q. A Difficult Childhood “Can you please ask Abenda why I have chosen this life in which I experienced such a difficult childhood with my stepmother Rebap. She is still affecting me today. On top of this, I’m now dealing with a stepchild (from my husband’s first marriage) with whom I feel very uncomfortable. What can I do about this and how can I resolve my karma?” T.H. A. A man in muslin robes came to speak -- a very holy man named Ranish. He wrote the following through my hand: “Dear T., you are to realize that you have overcome many difficult times with Rebap. Deep within, she chastises herself for being so unkind and uncaring. She does not understand the difficult dynamic. In 1481 you were warring tribes in a region of Spain. Rebap was a man in that life. You were a girl, aged 13, when he stole you from your tribe during a raid. He forced you to become his mate and in the years that followed, you bore him five children. The others in this tribe adored this man, but you loathed him. He had killed your family and you feared him. You tried not to upset him, and there was no communication between you. You died of a fever when your fifth child was five years old. “In a previous incarnation, you were a sultan and Rebap was a concubine that you dismissed most of the time. “Coming now to this life, you both have mixed emotions to work out. You don’t want to be together, yet you have much history and a mutual love bond with others in your life. This karmic intertwining conflicts with the emotions of all involved. The best thing to do is offer peace in prayers, and act kindly. Communicate in a positive way to change the energy flow between the two of you. Caring sentiments and general positive statements can go a long way between you. “The same with your step-daughter. She has been your child in another life and did not have any time with you as you died after childbirth. She comes through a different mother, but will look to you for love and acceptance. She has felt rejected by your absence, so make it a point to be there for her and offer her friendship and companionship. She has her own karma to work out and will benefit greatly by the kindness you display to her throughout her life. You need to open your heart and accept her once again, and this time remain for her to love you. At times you may feel rejected by her need to embrace her real mother, but know that you can withstand this sort of display. You all have the capacity for love and growth. Do not limit love in your life or in the lives of those surrounding you. You have my love always.” Ranish
Note from Abenda: “Your heart is open and is big enough to hold the energy of your lineage and ancestors, as well as your loved dear ones. No limitations. Be open. Ask questions of others if you find it difficult to communicate. You are blessed and a lovely and loving soul.” In oneness, Abenda
Q. Fired from Airline “I used to have a dream job as a flight attendant with an airlines and was living in Orlando, FL. But I was arrested for using steroids for bodybuilding. Since my arrest was a felony, I was fired and can never work again with any airline. Since then, I have been depressed because no one will hire me, not even for menial jobs. At age 37, I had to move back home with my parents. I no longer have a sense of purpose or any desire. How can I break out of my limitations?” James Atwood A. A large muscled man came to me claiming that he was a strong man in a Bulvarian circus in 1589. His name was Hulfasminak and he wore swaddling clothing when performing. Here is what he wrote: “James I knew while we were in the circus. He was a very tiny little elf. A dwarf is what you would call him. He wanted to be big and strong like me and I encouraged him every day to come help me. He was a special friend in our unusual lives as circus performers. He would be in freak shows as well as dress up and run though people’s legs to scare them and try to make the children laugh. He was a very kind elf. I would not have known a kind life without his presence. After 12 years in the circus, my dear little friend fell to the ground and died when his heart gave out. I missed him very much. “Today, he must not worry about his future. He is making himself worry to sickness. He wanted to be a strong man. He can be one in this life. He is good with people and crowds. His love of travel with the airlines is a reflection of his years of traveling with the circus, but it was not fulfilling. “Maybe he can work with weights and move around a little, like a trainer at many gyms. He could start his own business as a personal trainer. His body is now big and strong in this life. That is fulfilling and I congratulate him. He should stay away from growth pills though. It is not how big you are, it is your strength of mind, body and character. I wish you good luck, comrade.” Hulfasminak
Note from Abenda: “You will continue to better yourself in this life. All major changes happen for a reason. The reasons for your change have not become clear to you yet, but you are to stop resisting and concentrate on what you do well in life. You know what that is. Pick an area of interest and establish goals. Do not limit yourself. You can start in your state and continue to expand. Let your destiny take shape and work consistently to achieve it.” In oneness, Abenda
Q. What Is My Purpose? “Something in your Website struck me, so I am compelled to write you. Although I’ve perceived some understanding through past-life regression, visceral and cranial sacral work, floating and Reiki, I am impatient with the process of learning my purpose. “I know everything happens for a reason, yet I seem to be a catalyst for others to work out their issues and I am frustrated by this energy drain. My energy seems to be osculating rather than evolving me to do the great work that I have alluded to being capable of. Can you help me realize miracles?” Karen Seegert A. A man in his mid-thirties, wearing a short beard and a formal suit, appeared to me. He told me he was Austrian and a dear doctor friend of yours from the past. His name was Halford. This is what he wrote through my hand: “I want to say that Karen and I were very good colleagues in our days as medical specialists in the early 1920s. We were both males and full of great hope. Inrique was Karen’s name then, and he was a brilliant doctor. He helped many others administering great care and went into surgical procedures. He was losing his eyesight by the time he was 30 years old and felt that he could find a cure. So he would concoct all these formulas, but he was becoming steadily more sightless. “He felt that glasses would scare his patients, but he had to resort to them to perform surgery. He was always pouring these concoctions into his eyes. I was his physician and friend, but I could not stop him from ruining his eyes. At age 39, he poured a fluid into his eyes that blinded him and ended his career. “Inrique was married and they had a son, but due to his blindness, most of their possessions had to be sold, and they went to his parent’s old home to recover. The parents were gone, but his older brother’s family welcomed them into the house where the wife was soon enjoying the hospitality and good nature of the extended family. “Inrique was well taken care of, but he was extremely lonely and longed to work. The family assisted him when he dictated medical formulas. These were formulated for him to try on himself. He died at age 52, sitting out the latter part of his life in this house. “In this life, Karen has trouble with her eyes. She must be careful and thoughtful. A career in medicine has not been an option. Deep within, she fears it might have gotten her into trouble again. But in reality, it would make her spirit feel special if she could make a helpful difference in the lives of others. Maybe she could find purpose in working with the blind in some way. I hope that she will continue to live a good and sighted life. I wish you the greatest blessings my dear friend.” Halford
Note from Abenda: “In your heart you know what you want to accomplish in your life. Do not let others hold you back. In time, they will take great pride in you.” In oneness, Abenda
Q. Why Breast Cancer? “I am a 35-year-old woman who has been undergoing chemotherapy for nearly six years for stage-four breast cancer. I felt the mass in my right breast many years before I was diagnosed. I didn’t think it would be cancer, because I was in my mid-twenties. I am in remission, because of the regular chemo treatments. I have a positive attitude and I refuse to succumb to this disease. I believe that one day I will be healed, but not by modern medicine. I have so much left to do in this lifetime, most important is raising my 11-year-old son and realizing my heart’s desires. If possible, could you please ask Abenda what I need to learn from this and why did it happen to me? I accept that it is my karma, but you and your husband have said many times, “Wisdom erases karma.” Coletta Angiolillo
A. A plump Caribbean woman dressed in a colorful dress and turban came in to talk. Her name was Anisia, and this is what she wrote: “Coletta experienced an incarnation in 1480 as a crusader -- a male soldier that persecuted others for not being Christians. As a result, she needed to learn more about personal values, the world and its people in following lifetimes. “In her last life, Coletta was a school teacher in 1858 -- an English woman who was sent with her husband to be an African missionary. She was fascinated with the land, loved nature ... and loved the children she taught. She realized that the African people were in harmony with their lives and the environment. She feared that teaching them other ways would bring changes and corruption. So she let the children bring her God into their beliefs, opposed forcing the people to change what they had believed for centuries. “Other English people were disappointed in Coletta’s teaching method, and she was asked to step down. Her replacement was to instill the English equivalent of God in the proper context. Coletta was ostracized by the members of her community. Her husband asked her to return to England, saying he would continue his missionary work without her. “She said goodbye to beautiful Africa and returned home to England a failure in her own eyes and those closest to her. She had born no children, and her teaching papers were revoked. She lived in her mother-in-law’s extra cottage on her property. Coletta died of consumption seven years after returning from Africa. She never saw her husband again. “Coletta has carried guilt from the last life. She loves to learn new things, but she fears that the learning may cost her dearly. To speak out about her beliefs may cost her dearly. If she concentrates on a disease, she won’t have time or energy for things that could get her into trouble. She has worn cancer as a shield. The essence of a woman is to give. The breasts are to sustain life in children. If she cuts them away, will she still be deserving of learning and living ... or having people around to learn and love? “She should realize that she was given a strong gift in Africa. The gift of spiritual bliss -- universal consciousness of the one as perceived in many of the African people. The same spiritual spark smolders within her today as an interest in metaphysics. She now has a chance to alleviate her pain and suffering. I wish her much love and many gracious moments of pleasure and joy.” Anisia
Note from Abenda: Our opinions generate actions that mold our karmic destiny. Life should be an open, loving, spontaneous, expressive journey, not an experience confined by fear. You felt you were right in Africa. Your community felt they were right. You acted by following your conscience, knowing others would disagree. And you paid a price that caused you to suffer and doubt. Negative experiences program fears that need to be resolved. Yes, wisdom does erase karma. Start by accepting that following your conscience is a good thing. Learning is a good thing. Because you suffered in your last life, does not need to relate to this incarnation. You don’t need a shield, Coletta. Continue on your peaceful and loving spiritual quest. Meditate daily on releasing the past and forgiving yourself and the others involved. Seek higher knowledge and share it with others. In oneness, Abenda * * * * * You can leave an e-mail at the Website Visitor Center asking to put on the “Abenda Alert” mailing list. You’ll be notified of new columns and if something of importance comes up. We will never release your e-mail address to any other organization. If you’re interested in learning to communicate with your spirit guide on your own, see Tara’s “Automatic Writing” audio meditation tape/CD. Tara cannot answer letters personally, but will respond to as many as possible in this column. Questions must be sent in a signed letter via US mail to Box 38, Malibu, CA 90265. She uses the letter and signature as a psychic touchstone.
____________________________ May 2001 Through automatic writing, Tara’s spirit guide Abenda answers questions about multiple marriages, strange life circumstances, past-life experiences, and a rags-to-riches-to-rags situation. _________________________________ Sometimes I wonder why human beings are so tied to roller-coaster emotions that shoot up into happiness and joy and then drop down into confusion and conflict, and then back up again. This seems to be a pattern we all have to overcome. So I asked Abenda, “Why?” She had this to say: “The proper path is always one of unconditional love. Nothing can be chaotic unless you allow it by choosing to view the situation from that perspective. But most people view their worlds as chaotic, because it is a reflection of their inner being. Metaphysics teaches, ‘know thyself,’ but few are willing because they fear the chaos within. They hide from introspection by staying physically busy or mentally distracted. “And people tend to dwell upon unreality -- on a past that no longer exists and a future that does not yet exist. If your world consists only of memories and desires, how could you be anything but chaotic? Instead, apply the concept of unconditional love to the present moment. Choose to live in the NOW, which is totally harmonious if you simply allow it to be.” * * * * * Abenda chose the following letter, because she felt the largest number of people would relate to the messages. To receive the communications, I go into a theta-level trance, and Abenda finds someone in spirit that knows the letter writer or is aware of the problem. Under my guide’s carefully orchestrated conditions, this soul controls my hand and the response is received via automatic writing. I also usually perceive the soul visually while this is transpiring.
Q. Why four marriages “I had a wonderful childhood with two loving parents, three brothers and a sister. So I do not know why I have been married four times and have had several bad relationships in between. I am a happy-go-lucky, free spirited, loving and spiritual person, but I unknowingly pick very controlling men. I feel that I am a good person that none of the men has appreciated. “I am still with my fourth husband and determined to make it work, but he seems to want me all to himself and I have four children and two grandchildren that I adore. I am not going to let him put a wall between us and I do not understand why he would want me to. I know in my heart that you are going to answer me. Somehow I have always known and have waited for the perfect time. Help me please.” Robin Lewis A. Albertha Marta, an older woman, came to speak. She was heavy set and wearing a light-blue flowered linen dress. Here is what she wrote through my hand: “You have chosen controlling men for security. Each time, you have initially felt you were being protected and nurtured. In past lives you have often needed protection among your peers. The world now offers you some semblance of sanctuary, but subconsciously you feel a need to be watched over and cared for. With your sense of freedom comes fear of the unknown. “Your current husband would like to bottle you up and put you on a shelf for his enjoyment alone. This is because he fears abandonment at a very deep level, and he needs reassurance today. To live your life fully and to experience joy, you must find that joy from many sources. Your husband’s lack of self-esteem can be nurtured with gentle guidance. It is never too late to change. “In Jamaica in 1717, you were a male landowner from Belgium. Your present husband was a black female concubine. You had no commitment to her, but she bore you five children. You were good to her and the children, but she was a minor part of your life. She died in childbirth. You buried her lovingly and missed her greatly. “In 1876, you were friends in America -- both males. This time around, you had no need of commitment. This was a relief to your husband’s soul. You created a town in central Wyoming and you frolicked together with wanton women. Eventually you both married, but you always maintained your friendship and shared business activities. “Because of your detachment in the past, your current husband is insecure. You both take many things for granted -- things you’ve never discussed. You both need to honestly communicate your relationship expectations. You’ve been best friends and lovers in the past, and you have the potential to be once again.” Note from Abenda: “Relationships are karmic soul contracts, often established to learn a specific lesson. Each of your relationships assisted you to learn something you needed to learn, or built upon previous lessons you had not accepted. Alleviate the disturbances in your present relationship through wisdom and communications. The two of you have a legacy of affection, which can become much more.“ In love and light, Abenda
Q. Strange life circumstances “The strange circumstances of my life elude me. My adopted parents tell me I was found in a small village by soldiers near the end of the Vietnam War. I spent time in a few orphanages until my arrival in the US, where I enjoyed a normal childhood. During my teen years I found I had a psychic gift. I thought I was crazy so I ignored it for awhile. Finally, when I could not ignore it anymore, I opened myself to it. Since then, I have moved to California. My psychometry readings are getting better and I feel like I am growing more powerful. I would like to work with the police or other agencies. “I have fear of abandonment and I suffer from bulimia, and unexplainable feelings of guilt. I am trying so hard. Every day I ask for my guides to show themselves so we can discuss all my questions. Nothing yet. I know they are there secretly helping. I know I am loved and meant to do great things, but I have so many questions and feel so lost. I am also deeply missing my family, feeling very lonely and wondering if I will ever find my soulmate and get married. By some miracle, I found your book Blame It On Your Past Lives and felt that I had to contact you. Thank you in advance. Any advice from this world or the next is greatly appreciated.” Ruth Linh Maier A. “My name is Hanahah and I am a light being from the level above that of the guides and planet-dweller helpers. I am very connected to your soul growth. I have lived 50 lifetimes as a human on earth. In some of those incarnations, you and I have been in the same family. “I am aware, when you seek above-range psychic information -- mostly through your dreams when you are sleeping. I offer you comfort and love. You have been very nervous and were over stimulated when you were a young child in this life. You feel that your soul goal is to help others wake up and make better choices. Because of your experience of being a war child, people listen and open themselves. Then you step in and provide the comfort you also seek. “I feel you often allow too much of your empathy and sympathy to be taken from you. You need to learn to close down psychically at times. You psychically witness and experience the sorrow and pain of others, taking it into yourself. This is related to your bulimia. Make sure you release and stay centered in your body. “The vague guilt you experience is from a lifetime as a desert dweller in the late fourteenth century. You were a boy born of wealth and although you were pampered as a child you longed for adventure -- to immerse yourself in manly activity. You joined a gaggle of men who were raiders. They patrolled the area and acted as guardians. In time, you met up with a more daring and adventurous group, and decided to join them. They went though villages, stealing women and children. The group sometimes killed others, especially if they were hungry. “You were sickened by this behavior and ended up a criminal and a fugitive. You wanted out of the group but had to bide your time or lose your life. You did what you could for the women and children, making sure they had food. You lived like this for ten years. “In time, you came to a mosque and went inside. You confessed your dilemma and the holy man made a place for you as a protector of the temple. You also helped the sick and elderly in a nearby town. “Your need to make up for what you had done, carried over into a lifetime in sixteenth-century France. You were a pig farmer who was very generous with unfortunate families in your community. You were compassionate, giving away many pigs. You were uncaringly used at times by greedy people, but this never caused you to waver. You had a wife and many children, and died of heart failure as an old man. “In your current incarnation, you were a child of war, and saved as you saved others. You have a mission to accomplish in this life and have only started to pursue it. Give up the bulimia. You are to eat and grow strong to help others. All will fall into place when you connect with your courage.” Note from Abenda: “Spread peace and love. It is part of your giving nature that you are suppressing. Feel your presence on this earth. Walk past fear. Collect hope. Move on to faith and action. “ In love and light, Abenda
Q. Past-Life Experiences? “I feel as if I’m being pushed by a force beyond me to write this letter. I’m a 56-year old Viet Nam Combat Vet. Until seven years ago, I had no problems dealing with my past, but I hit a place where I lost an uncle and a beloved pet. Everyone said sorry but no one could seem to reach me. Viet Nam and all the ghosts flooded in around me and I found myself in a very dark hole. There were several nights I sat in a dark room by myself ready to pull the top of the hole in on top of me and walk away from this world. This in itself is very unlike me. I honor the life God gave above all things. “I will compress much of this story. Just before my darkest point -- it happened to be my birthday -- a woman I work with gave me some flowers. She touched my arm and said I was a very special person. A few days before this, I had a strange dream that I was a woman and I had seen my husband (who was this woman) killed on a large pile of rocks that seemed to be used as an altar. “Sitting alone in my room, in deep depression, I focused upon a single flower I had dried from those the woman gave me. And I remembered her words, “You are a very special person.” For some reason, I felt I had to touch her hand. So one day I reached out and took her hand. It almost put me on my knees. I had never felt anything like it. It was as if I had reached out and touched myself. My senses did not know how to handle it. But I was lifted out of depression. “That weekend I went to the video store to rent a movie and there on the shelf, just like it had been put there for me, was Dick Sutphen’s Past-Life Regression Video Hypnosis. I couldn’t leave the store without it. The first time I used the tape, I asked about the woman who gave me the flowers. A few moments later, I was observing myself walking down long steps into a room where a man was sitting holding the hand of a woman who looked very sick. Then I was seeing her through his eyes. She died with me holding her hand. I felt as if my heart was ripped out. “A number of days later, I regressed again. This time, I saw two young people walking through a flower garden. It was a wedding and we were getting married. After awakening and writing about what I experienced, I must have fallen asleep. But the next think I knew I was on my knees on the floor sobbing, holding out my hand and calling the woman’s name. “In another regression, I saw myself with a bad sword wound in the shoulder. This time the woman stopped the blood and tended me until I was well. A guide seemed to be with me as I observed this and I was impressed with the knowledge that the woman had saved me in the past and was there to save me now.” “There have been many other experiences. Sometimes I think the men in white coats need to come and get me. But after ordering some of Dick’s books, it all seems to make sense. Can you tell me about this woman? Are we really that connected? Is she there to help me? I’m trying so hard to find some kind of validation.” (Name withheld by request) A. A man dressed in black robes and wearing a white headband appeared to me and said his name was Allay Fromen. This is what he wrote through my hand: “We were desert dwellers in 1387. You were my friend and we had many adventures. Leaving a home of 17 children (I was #12), I joined up with you at age 16. In time, we came to a town in what is now Arabia. You were smitten by a very young woman -- maybe 13. So we settled in this place. Your family in old Persia were cobblers. So you began to make shoes, which led to cloth trade. I learned tailoring, and we made a fine living. We gained tents and animals. “Three years after first seeing the woman, you asked for her hand. The father was sorry to inform you that this daughter was betrothed to another, but he had two more daughters for you and I. You accepted for both of us -- much to my dismay. But I felt I had to go through it, so I did. They were both very sweet women and added comfort and luxury to our lives. We continued to work together. So it became a very easy going and pleasing crowd considering the children we created. You mentioned the other sister from time to time, but I would put my hand on your shoulder and remind you of the beauty and joy that she indirectly brought into our lives. She was to be beloved from afar. “Then her husband died suddenly, and the sisters asked if they might bring her and her three children to live in our fold. I knew this could bring trouble, but you and I could not refuse. You went on to have five more children with her -- the one you were first so attracted to. The sisters never seemed to mind that you had two sisters as your women. We enjoyed this life very much. It was a very loving tribe. “And today, you meet this woman of your dreams once again. Although you wish that things could be easier, know that up until now, you have been resting from many lifetimes of courage, bravery, upheaval and death of loved ones. You have tested yourself over and over in past lives. And you still have much love awaiting you in this life. “I miss you and I often check in to see how you are doing. You are one of my dearest friends on a soul level.”
Note from Abenda: “You are fraught with misunderstanding of your motives and desires. Do not restrain or reject your initial ideas, rather put them on paper and help yourself gain workable solutions and clarity. Act in your own best interest. Do not shield yourself from tenderness, understanding, sensitivity and love. You experience it as mental love, you can also experience it on a physical level. You fear the price you must pay for love and actions. But there is no price. You are not of your world. You are from my world. You are only visiting your world. You can make it a pleasure trip or one of misery and loneliness. It is your choice.” In love and light, Abenda
Q. Rags to riches to rags “I am writing this letter the day after my 58th birthday in hopes you can give me some insight into my life. A homeopathic consultant had me fill out a lifeline of traumatic events. It was scary so many deaths and serious illnesses. I was a sickly insecure child, always fearful of death and dying. “I married a man my parents thought wasn’t good enough for me. He was very poor, put himself through college and then went on to dedicating his life to achieving success. He attained every material thing he could think of. From the outside looking in, we were the perfect successful family -- country clubs, yacht club, boat, plane, big house, private schools, etc. “But my husband was over-bearing, controlling and moody -- a difficult man to be with. His tongue was like a whip. I learned over the years what was expected of me, how to act and what to say to keep peace. I realize now it was emotional abuse. I was always being lectured. It was not a marriage of equals. “Disaster struck our lives when after 23 years of employment with the same family, he was ‘dismissed.’ He was a broken man for the next ten years. We moved to a smaller home. Lawsuits used up remaining funds to no avail. My husband could never find steady employment. Decisions were thrust on my shoulders. I tried small jobs here and there, but my husband didn’t want me working. Finally, we were in hell. If we worked together we would have been okay, but he made life hell. Following a two-year illness, he died in 1995. “Although life has been challenging, I have six wonderful children who have been a big help. From the day my husband died, I felt something was happening to me physically. I had no health coverage, so I was directed to a low-income clinic. After x-rays and blood tests, I was told I was under stress, but okay. This went on for three years. Eventually I was classified as a depressed hypochondriac. All during this time, walking became more difficult. I stumbled and fell often. After a hysterical outburst, I was finally sent to a neurologist. In June, 2000, I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis. “I feel as if I have walked into a brick wall. I had finished 2 1/2 years of college, but could no longer walk to class. I am no longer able to work. I must use a cane to walk. After fighting so hard to survive these last ten years, I am very angry and frustrated. I can’t seem to find purpose and direction that makes sense. I thought these would be “my” years. No more being a doormat. But my dreams seem to be pulling out of reach and I want to scream ... why?” Carol Makin A. An Englishman in 1800s attire came to me in response to your letter. He told me his name was B.L. Button and he was your father in a nineteenth century London lifetime. He wanted to convey the following message to you: “Dear one, you have had such a struggle with propriety holding you in check. Your pride has always been in the way. Your parent’s pride was always in your way as well. Your husband’s pride was in your way. And now, you seem lost as you fear losing your pride and dignity because of MS. “So the first thing I want you to do is release all that pent up pride. You are loved by your family, friends and by even a few of us over here. You can ask for help among professionals and caring people. Allow yourself to be cared for by the humble and the meek. There will be a goldmine of love found for you. “In 1848, you were 12 years old when you contracted a rare form of polio. You died in your mother’s and my arms. I was devastated and blamed myself for living in London near a river where you must have contracted some horrible germ. But with all the guilt and despair, I turned to your mother and we became socially conscious. We started to visit old-folk’s homes, orphanages and sanitariums with baskets of baked goods. You gave us the impetus to release ourselves from the pain of losing you. It became very rewarding. I still remember all the kindness and comfort we gave the others as we tried to fill the empty hole of self-pity within ourselves. “You are not to go through a time of self-pity. There are many more people worse off than you, and the more you can make of your life, the better you will feel and others will come out to help you as well. “I am terribly sorry that you could not resolve the karma of the polio lifetime in your last life. But if this is to be, start by forgiving yourself the lessons. Know that if I were alive, I would help you in any way that I could. But as I am not physically there, I hope you call on me in your dreams and at any time you feel you need me to listen to you. I will try to convey sound advice. “The original karma you are working off relates to an incarnation in Babylonia. You were a soldier and during a war in Greece, you axed down villagers and left a young girl paralyzed. This was an unfortunate accident as she ran toward her father to save him and you clipped her by mistake. You meant to spare her. You carried the girl to a physician’s assistant who told you the girl would live and they would care for her. It is time to forgive yourself. I am so glad to talk to you. Know that I miss you and wish you always the very, very best. I love you, your father from before.”
Note from Abenda: “Do not give up. Know that you have made a karmic choice to experience this path. Draw from your deep well of self-esteem to gain perspective on your current situation. You may need to truly learn to give to get, much as your past-life father did. You will do the correct thing, for you take pride in survival.” In love and light, Abenda * * * * *
2001 "Cause & Effect" ____________________________ November 2001 Through automatic writing, Tara receives answers to questions about not finishing projects, considering a divorce, being surrounded by spiritual energy and much more ... including the Web response to September 11, 2001.
“The terrorist attacks have been set into motion for sometime. There are many sick people who prey upon the innocent. Karma comes into play. Everyone who died knew that they would transfer to our world -- meaning the astral world. And they will all play an individual part to teach others of compassion, strength, beauty and unconditional love. No one escapes death, but few really get a chance to teach strong lessons. Those who died will be teachers for many, many years to come. It is their legacy and their blessing. They died for their purpose -- their dharma. They offer a gift even in the wake of great tragedy. “Look to the streets and see the people being empathetic to their neighbors. The loss of the American ideal is your country’s loss. But if you can alter your viewpoint, you’ll realize that you are truly living the American ideal of brotherhood. And most of the world is dismayed by such events. It was an act that affected all people of the world. September 11th was a day when the world was small. “Again, the world will expand, stretch, grow. There will be more chaos, more terrorism, I’m sorry to say. Prepare yourselves to help others. It might be you in a time of need -- your family and friends. Do not hesitate, your time to act is now. “The United States will act responsibly in it’s response to the terrorists -- with good intent and there will not be a full war as a result. There will be many changes in the laws and your country will lose many freedoms. Big Brother will establish his place among the families of America. As needed, curfews and new rules will be enacted. In time, everyone will adapt, but that, in itself, is an undesirable potential. Repression will come in waves. Americans who so revere freedom will now fear too much freedom. In oneness, Abenda November, 2001 -- Abenda’s introduction: In response to the unwarranted fears that have been passing through almost all human minds since the attacks in New York City, I wish I could offer you “peace on a platter.” But it is your individual karma that dictates the path of your destiny. The best advice I can share is to have compassion for all others. Help where you can. This does not mean going off on tangents. Compassion begins in the home and then moves out into the neighborhood, city, state, country and foreign countries. Act with courage in times of change. Keep your families and communities motivated and future oriented. * * * * * From Tara: For each issue of Soaring Spirit, Abenda chooses letters she feels will relate to many readers. To receive the communications, I go into a theta-level trance, and my Spirit Guide finds someone on the other side that knows the letter writer or a loving entity who is aware of the problem. Under Abenda’s carefully orchestrated conditions, this soul controls my hand and the response is received via automatic writing. I also perceive the soul visually while this is transpiring.
1. I have a great deal of spiritual energy around me at all times, which I acknowledge and try to communicate with. I often hear someone speaking as if they were a distance away. In my home, this energy (or entities) enjoy playing with the remote controls for the TV and making themselves known in other ways. Can you tell me about this? 2. I have a karmic-related relationship with Geoffrey, which is currently strained because of issues he’s working with. I feel he might be my soulmate although we’re both married to others. I also feel very connected to his wife Hortense. I seem to feel her emotions on a daily basis. Can you explain this? 3. Ten years ago in an ARE reading, I was told at age 40 I would pick-up and continue with my life’s work as a healer and teacher. I’m now a certified hypnotherapist, but I don’t feel successful. I think about suicide. I’m very worried about my future. Can you help me understand? Regina A. A woman named Maria Vallergosa came in to write to you. She said you were nuns together in another life. “Dear Regina, You are and always have been very spiritual. Many of us on this side of the veil whisper words of comfort and love, which you sometimes perceive on a conscious level. You have the ability to hear more if you work to open to us. We are nuns from your different spiritual-based incarnations, who come to speak to you. Your writing helps you to open to us. “Geoffrey and Hortense were nuns at one time. Geoffrey, a woman in that lifetime, was very special and held in high regard in the order. You and Hortense were on the same level. You must have loved Geoffrey with zeal to follow him into his established relationship in this life. And that is why there is intense emotion for Geoffrey and why you also wish Hortense well. You have all wanted to experience earthly lives that are not part of an organized path or order, so you are together again playing out your current roles. “You are very psychic and sensitive to those around you. You do, however, need to block others energy at times, so you don’t have negative thoughts about suicide and death. You have much work to accomplish in this life. Go do your best. We cheer you on.” Love, Maria Note from Abenda: “Dear Regina, You often scatter your psychic energies. If you try to focus and control it a little more, you would have far more success. By control, I mean stay centered when you meditate. Visualize yourself sitting upon the earth: on a rock, beneath a tree, or near water. You tend to go very deep into meditation, but this opens you to too much chatter from earthbound and discarnate beings which can work against you. You need to stay connected to the earth. I wish you peace.” In oneness, Abenda
“Thank you and Richard for all the wonderful work you do. I’m writing to ask for help because I live in fear all the time. I’m constantly negative. I live in fear of change (things taken away from me). My finances have never been good. My life seems to be one vicious cycle which needs to be broken. Can Abenda advise me?” Nancy M. Soward A. A woman named Albegaretha Manclavanka came in to speak. She was your mother in another life. “Dear Nancy, I want to say that I am so glad to be able to speak to my darling Nancy. This is truly a gift. You are to live in peace and hope, not fear. You will find the courage to go forward in life. You do not trust that you can have a good life and feel terribly vulnerable. You have nothing to fear. You need to start giving your time away in ways that will allow you to see that your life is good. “In a past life, you were my daughter and I enjoyed you very much. I died when you were still a teenage girl and you were sent away to live with a traveling troupe of gypsies. You had a healthy and wholesome life. In your next incarnation you were a witch in Boston, MA. You were hung and then burned. You fear to this day that you will be judged, hung and burned. So you have mixed emotions about your past and your interests in this life. Start making a plan to better your life. Write it out on paper. Consider why your life would be better for these changes? What are the negative potentials of these changes? “I see you in the helping fields at this time, health care or a volunteer position -- some avenue you can enjoy while also helping others. “I wish you so much love, your other Mother.” Note from Abenda: “Your path will be clear to you very soon. Plan your direction, be honest with yourself about what you need in your life. You may need to gain a better sense of helpfulness with others. I wish you peace.” In oneness, Abenda I need Abenda’s help desperately. I am thinking of divorce, but am unsure of what to do. I’ve been married for 37 years. I seem to be surrounded by alcoholics -- my sister and son, and my husband is a functioning alcoholic. My husband is verbally abusive and I’ve taken just about all I can take. I’m 61 years old and have put my life on hold for 20 years. Do I have unfinished karma? Anything you can tell me will be appreciated. Helene Landry A. A woman named Peggy McKenough came to write. She wore a flowing green/purple chiffon flowered dress -- very 1950’s with a flair. “I wish that I could make you feel better about your life. You are getting tired of the merry-go-round. You have waited for many years. You have done your best to help everyone. And as painful as you feel now, it’s not unlikely that you will change your mind and stay with your family. Your motivation is rooted deeply in helping your family through their traumas. “In a past life in Alba (Scotland), 1621, you were taken hostage by a land owner to be a slave for the castle grounds. You longed for your family and knew that they suffered greatly at the hands of these so-called noblemen. You were outraged by their lack of ethics and loyalty. You thought them utterly despicable, but you owed karma resulting from an incarnation as a warring chief in an African lifetime. You stole many women and children and killed men for your pleasure. So there was balance in being enslaved in Alba. You became very good at medicine and doctoring the sick, and became the official nurse of the grounds. This suited you well and elevated your compassion level for all these people. Even though they did horrible deeds, they needed to be cared for and you could help them. “Again you are in such a life. You have pulled your fair share of the responsibilities and more. Is it time for you to reclaim your life or do you continue to help the sick and the weak? You are in a quandary. But your decision should be based upon what makes you happy. Or really content. Think of how content you could be. Your answers lie deep within you. You can sever the ties with your husband, but can you sever the ties with your children? Have courage -- as this is what these people all need to learn. “Stay well and optimistic. Your path is not predestined. You and you alone will decide. And no matter what your decision, know that I support you.” I love you, Peggy Note from Abenda: “Dear Helene, You are on your karmic path. Wisdom erases karma. Know that you can not undo all the injustice and hurt you have experienced. But you can start to change course and seek better circumstances for yourself. You live up to a self-image as a wife and mother. Can you let go enough to gain peace and a quiet future? Peace be with you. In oneness, Abenda “I start a project, but have a hard time finishing. This is even true of books I start reading. I went to school for mechanical engineering, but have not been able to find a job in my field. Can you provide me with any insight?” Michael Braxter A. A man named Alfred Braxter came in to speak with you. Is he known to be part of your genetic lineage? He was dressed formally in a tuxedo. “Greetings. I will tell you the real reason you do not finish anything. In France 1749, you were a cobbler who toiled long hard hours. You made fine boots, luggage and shoes. Two men worked with you, and one day you caught one stealing merchandise to sell down the road in other towns. You asked him not to come back to work. But he did one night with relatives and burned your shoe store and living quarters to the ground. Two of your children died in the fire. You were left with the clothes on your back. Your wife then left you with you taking your one remaining child. You were utterly in shock and dismay. You never recovered your sense of security again in that lifetime. “In this lifetime, you flounder with security. You know what you want to do, but you have a hard time driving yourself to succeed, because you subconsciously feel the cost may be too high. Unblock those fears, assert yourself and know that every step forward is a baby step. Allow yourself to live. Do not fear the unknown. I believe you have sought peace in your life, but learn to live a true life of happiness. I wish that for you.” Love, Alfred Note from Abenda: “Dear Michael, It is time to start making changes. Work on being assertive. Believe in yourself and your opinions. Know that you can attain peace while also standing up for your human rights and survival.” In oneness, Abenda
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